[ it's like a funhouse mirror, almost. safe isn't quite the word to apply to how she feels around ben. it's ... more complicated than that. it's certainty and understanding and clarity. unafraid, for sure. and not like everything else will be okay, but like they'll be okay — that's a kind of safety.
[ she has to reach. it's not her instinct to think of it in those terms, but there were ... moments. when ben had been drinking at the brewery, for instance. that had felt light. in the few moments they were unburdened by their pasts and their galaxy, it had felt that way. ]
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Date: 2018-03-05 03:28 am (UTC)[Thank the stars for that.]
Really? You never said anything about it. At least, I don't think so.
[Then again, he probably wasn't thinking about it in that context because he's an idiot.]
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Date: 2018-03-05 03:32 am (UTC)But the way Poe is with you, it's different than the way you and I are, or me and Keith. So ...
I'm really happy for you, Finn.
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Date: 2018-03-05 04:23 am (UTC)[So, like, none.]
I don't really know what I'm doing, but it's nice. But you're right, it's different.
Thanks, Rey. That means a lot to me. You'll help me, right? Not mess this up?
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Date: 2018-03-05 04:29 am (UTC)But I'll listen. And I'll help as much as I can.
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Date: 2018-03-05 04:51 am (UTC)Just like you know you can talk to me about anything, too.
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Date: 2018-03-05 04:58 am (UTC)[ phew. though now that he opened that — ]
What does it feel like when you're with him?
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Date: 2018-03-09 04:34 am (UTC)But a little nervous at the same time.
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Date: 2018-03-09 04:37 am (UTC)the last bit pings her more directly. ]
Nervous about what?
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Date: 2018-03-09 04:59 am (UTC)It's not a bad nervous. It's just this weird excitement, I'll kind of feel a little sick in my stomach, but in a good way.
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Date: 2018-03-09 05:07 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-03-09 05:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-03-09 05:57 am (UTC)[ she has to reach. it's not her instinct to think of it in those terms, but there were ... moments. when ben had been drinking at the brewery, for instance. that had felt light. in the few moments they were unburdened by their pasts and their galaxy, it had felt that way. ]
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Date: 2018-03-15 05:32 pm (UTC)[This may be worrisome like he's figured something out, before the next message comes.]
Okay, good. I was worried I sounded crazy.
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Date: 2018-03-15 06:28 pm (UTC)uh oh.
uh—
phew. ]
Not to me. Never to me.
[ It's been a while apart, though, so she gets Finn feeling that way. ]
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Date: 2018-03-19 04:09 am (UTC)You're the best, you know that?
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Date: 2018-03-19 04:26 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-03-22 10:05 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-03-22 10:38 pm (UTC)