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[forcevisions]

I know!

Nothing here is straightforward. Nothing.

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I'm not sure anything's ever been straightforward. I don't even just mean here.

There's just a certain level of crazy that we were used to.

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But back home I just had the problem in front of me to worry about.

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Just deal with this the same way, then? One thing at a time.

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That feels pointless. Showing up at the skirmishes is like putting out fires after they've already started. I want to stop another from sparking.

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Me too, but I'm not going to be any good at that. Someone has to put out the fires until there's an actual solution, right?

You don't have to do everything.

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[ that makes her smile. ]

Have I told you enough how much I've missed you?

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I'm not gonna complain if you say it again.

I missed you too, Rey. More than you probably know.

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I'll say it as much as you'll let me. I missed you, Finn.

And I don't just mean the journey to Master Skywalker. When you were reassigned, I had no idea if I'd ever see you again here at all.

[ the part she leaves out is that she'd decided to stay anyway, for keith and urahara. ]

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I knew I'd see you again.

I wasn't going to just leave forever without finding you again.

[All of this had started because of her, to save her. He knew she had other friends, that was never going to be an issue. He'd always be there for her no matter what in whatever capacity he could be.]

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It wouldn't be forever, Finn. I'd have gone back too, eventually. You know that.

[ And now she's feeling a fuzzy kind of ? ?? jealous ?? Because she understands that what finn says is true but there's also this new thing that she doesn't know how it's going to Change Things. ]

Poe told me that you two had news.

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Yeah I know. But it still wouldn't have felt right.

He did? I should have made him let me tell you first.

[But he's glad they're talking about stuff? So that's good?]

I hope we're talking about the same thing.

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You're together.

[ She's good at cutting to the quick. ]

I had a feeling it might happen.

[ Reasons she left the inn room with them ... ]

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Yeah, I guess we are.

[Thank the stars for that.]

Really? You never said anything about it. At least, I don't think so.

[Then again, he probably wasn't thinking about it in that context because he's an idiot.]

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I wasn't sure. I haven't seen a lot of relationships, you know.

But the way Poe is with you, it's different than the way you and I are, or me and Keith. So ...

I'm really happy for you, Finn.

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Probably about as many as I have.

[So, like, none.]

I don't really know what I'm doing, but it's nice. But you're right, it's different.

Thanks, Rey. That means a lot to me. You'll help me, right? Not mess this up?

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I don't know if I'm the right person for that.

But I'll listen. And I'll help as much as I can.

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You're the only person that I think I could talk to about this, honestly.

Just like you know you can talk to me about anything, too.

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I'll bear that in mind.

[ phew. though now that he opened that — ]

What does it feel like when you're with him?

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Safe. Like no matter what, everything's going to be okay.

But a little nervous at the same time.

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[ it's like a funhouse mirror, almost. safe isn't quite the word to apply to how she feels around ben. it's ... more complicated than that. it's certainty and understanding and clarity. unafraid, for sure. and not like everything else will be okay, but like they'll be okay — that's a kind of safety.

the last bit pings her more directly. ]

Nervous about what?

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I don't know. It's hard to explain.

It's not a bad nervous. It's just this weird excitement, I'll kind of feel a little sick in my stomach, but in a good way.

[forcevisions]

That sounds a lot like a bad nervous.

[militarized]

Yeah, but bad nervous is just dread. Like you can't wait for something to be over. This isn't like that. It's lighter, I guess.

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I think I get it.

[ she has to reach. it's not her instinct to think of it in those terms, but there were ... moments. when ben had been drinking at the brewery, for instance. that had felt light. in the few moments they were unburdened by their pasts and their galaxy, it had felt that way. ]

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You do?

[This may be worrisome like he's figured something out, before the next message comes.]

Okay, good. I was worried I sounded crazy.

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[ uh oh.

uh oh.

uh—

phew. ]

Not to me. Never to me.

[ It's been a while apart, though, so she gets Finn feeling that way. ]

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[Aw, warm fuzzy feeling. Best frendo.]

You're the best, you know that?

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I don't know about that.

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Well, you are in my book.

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Thank you.